I Hate Both Presidential Candidates

This is the perfect election for left and right extremists.

For others, like yours truly, who don’t pander to one side or the other, this is hell.

Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton equally represent the absolute worst of what all of humanity has to offer. The two of them are selfish, greedy, lying, sociopathic narcissists with borderline personality disorders. I give a slight nod to Hillary Clinton in regards to who is more mentally ill.

There doesn’t appear to be a compassionate bone in either of them. I’m having difficulties recognizing which one of them is more power hungry or fundamentally evil. Both have done ridiculous amounts of harm in order to elevate their status and both of them have and continue to readily lie to cover their tracks. Both devalue human life and both seek out every opportunity to shamelessly brag about personal and professional accomplishments that truly never happened. Both have also left wakes of destroyed personal and professional relationships that have ruined peoples’ lives. Both have chosen personal enrichment over substance and honor at every turn.

Perhaps the most telling is that both claim bravery and loyalty when their lives are peppered with the exact opposite of that. Trump and Clinton are chickenshit hypocrites with delusions of grandeur. How our system ended up with these two dipshit charlatans confounds me. I guess at this point we are simply voting for who we want as Vice President.

Preworkout Powders are Overrated; Caffeine is the Best PWO

I have a bottle of Mr. Hyde that’s been sitting on my bookshelf since May 2015. I’ve used a few scoops, and eventually I’ll finish the little tub, but fuck, I wish I didn’t spend a dime on it.

Don’t get me wrong ~ Mr. Hyde is a potent, little thang. It’s a strong ‘preworkout’ (made by ProSupps), but… the best preworkout in the world is caffeine alone. There’s too much shit in preworkouts that have the potential to cause side effects, cause you to crash or feel like shit overall when you use ’em. Unless you are a bodybuilder, what’s the point of chasing an almighty pump from a $40+ preworkout powder?

Consume caffeine (and creatine, if you’d like; they are the two most well studied ‘supplements’ in the world) and save money!

All those herbs with names you can’t pronounce are unlikely to do shit, and besides that, they don’t have much science at all backing ’em.

Besides, the supplement industry is largely a scam. There’s only a few worthwhile things to take. The rest is a bunch of bologna.

Change of Career Choices, Fear and Aging

I made my first WordPress blog in late 2006. It was about sports. I think I wrote about how Marc Bulger was a top 5 quarterback in the NFL or something. In 2007, I made another sports blog and wrote on there for a couple of years before I burned out. I wanted to be a sports journalist. I talked to sportswriters from around the nation online (on a forum geared towards sportswriters) and practiced my passion. Then I met my first love, dated her for two and a half years before she cheated on and left me. After battling (natural) depression for a while, I wanted to go balls deep into the nutritional science field, but I took no action for a while..

After returning to (community) college in 2014 (for a reference: I graduated high school in 2009 and originally went to college that fall before dropping out by the end of the semester), I made straight A’s and decided that, for the fall of 2015, I’d change my major to pre-med, since I’d decided I wanted to be a physical therapist.

The 2015 school season, as a whole, was successful. For the first time in my life (at 24-years-old), I took chemistry. I made a B last fall and a C in the spring. It was hell. Math has never been my forte. Hell, I’ve ranted on here about math in the past. But thanks to YouTube videos and intense studying (my notes), I made it through that goddamn class. But the worst part of it was my lab instructor. Now… I do realize that most students were 18-years-old, fresh out of high school, but I didn’t appreciate being talked down to or treated like a subhuman by the lab instructor, who did just that to everybody in the class. I could rant and rant about that, but I’ll leave it at that. I digress.

I changed my major back to general studies last month when I went to sign up for fall classes. I only have a few more credits to complete before I move on. This has been a journey of personal redemption for yours truly. I really fucked up back in 2009 by not withdrawing from classes properly. I had a 1.9 GPA when I returned to college in 2014… I’ve brought that puppy up to a 3.0 through plenty of hard work.

I changed my major because this last year destroyed my passion for wanting to be a physical therapist. “Destroyed” might be a dramatic way of putting it, but really, I just don’t give a shit. After all the math (chemistry + the developmental math class I was taking), my passion and drive was zapped. I just lack the desire to want to continue through all the future math classes. Why do I need calculus? What’s the point? It just feels so fruitless to me. I can’t dig deep enough to find a reason to move forward in that endeavor, y’know?

All the money in the world isn’t worth wasting time being miserable. You might say, “Bruh, just think, once you get through all that math, you’ll be done for good!” Yeah, so? I just don’t have the desire to tread through it. I’m fucking tired, man.

I haven’t been a regular ‘writer’ in forever. I used to write all the time. I used to feel like I could write, but the lack of practice fucked it all up. This is all word vomit. Apologies.

What’s next? I just want to be happy and do something I’m interested in. I don’t want to finish up the math I need at this community college only to transfer to a university to take more math classes and waste money from a loan to be fucking miserable.

Maybe I should be a history teacher. I feel like I have a strong voice; I love history. Why not?

My birthday is coming up in a couple of months. I feel like I’ve never worked a day in my life.

My girlfriend moved in with me last month. She works at a gas station (for now). I feel like I need to step my shit up in life to make her proud.

Lack of confidence in hopping out of my comfort zone even further is damaging me at the moment.

Word vomit.

Sick of What’s Going on in America

I just want the bullshit to blow over. Whatever is going on in America right now. I miss 2008 or I miss being naive. Human beings are gigantic assholes, and I don’t know why.

I think the black lives matter movement is misguided, power hungry cops are no bueno and that we all need to look at the media and shake our heads in disgust for the race war it is essentially creating.

All the rioting and violence won’t cause anything outside of resentment, anger and confirmation bias (for racists). Hate begets hate.

I feel like this kind of shit wasn’t around in 2008. I keep referencing 2008, because that was (probably) the best year of my life (so far). There wasn’t as much hate being slung around. Of course, that was right before social media began to truly take off. MySpace was still alive and well, and probably ahead of Facebook at that time (2009 was the year Facebook essentially took over). About a year later, Twitter’s popularity exploded. I don’t remember people being as reactionary back then as they are today, but again, the voice you had on the internet was different then than it is now.

It seems as though now people can’t wait to chime in with their opinion as soon as a news story drops. Instead of waiting for available information, they impulsively post their thoughts, as if they want to be the first to be heard, even while being ignorant of the facts.

You can see the worst of humanity in YouTube comments, Facebook post comments and on Twitter — probably in that order.

I’ve just been pretty depressed lately. Racial pride is fucking idiotic; at the same rate, being ashamed of the color of your skin is fucking silly, too (referencing dumbass white apologists).

There’s a problem with power hungry people in general in America. As for the black lives matter movement, why don’t black people in America recognize blacks killing blacks as a mega issue? This piss poor movement is nothing when blacks are killing blacks at a growing rate.

The media isn’t helping. Speaking out on the issue probably doesn’t help, either. Regarding what you say, you are either a “liberal cuck” or a “cuckserative”. Nobody can have a goddamn opinion anymore without being accused of leaning one way or another to one of the two major political parties in the United States.

Would it better to turn off the news, deactivate Facebook & Twitter and live your life? I’m beginning to think so! Ignorance is bliss!